Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Running on fumes...

I have this practice in recent months that as soon as my car's gas tank gets down about a quarter, I make sure to refill. My thinking is that in case there's a sudden shortage on gas and all the stations are shut down, I will have at least a near full tank. The
"pandemic" has expanded my ways of thinking about being prepared.
However, as carefully as I try to monitor my car's gas tank, sometimes I can get careless with my spiritual tank. I confess that there have been times when my "tank" has been almost on empty, whether it is because of the cares of life, stress both emotional and physical, or just plain laziness...I KNOW when I am getting near that empty sign and the dangers that comes with it.
I can tell when I'm operating on spiritual "fumes", when it becomes too easy to respond in similar manner to a rude person. Yep, like when that person cuts you off in traffic and you respond by blowing your horn long and hard along with a few degrading words (I don't cuss but my words are just as cutting)...OR if someone says something smart... oh boy is it so VERY easy to give them an even smarter answer back. I can also tell when I'm on low when my patience and tolerance are almost non existent. Yep, at those times the attitude "chip" that is on my shoulder is so big it's more like a boulder!

During those times for me there is no joy, no peace, no contentment. The fact is that I have no one to blame but myself. I have allowed myself to let my relationship with Yah (God) go unattended, by not spending my alone time with Him. I have allowed myself not to find that "Place" and talk to Him, read His Word and just sit in His presence; when those times have not become priority. I have allowed the trials and pride of life to supersede the importance of making Him first and for HIM to sit on the throne of my heart.
I am being totally transparent when I say that I DO have those times and its not pretty. I make no excuses because there are none. You may ask "Well, where is that "place" to find Him?" The answer is, that "place" is you...wherever YOU are is the place to find Him and talk to Him. I am amazed at His love for me, because each time that I fail, I come running back in repentance and He is always there to grab me up and embrace me once again.
These last 7 or so months has exposed, revealed and instigated a lot of things and two of them have been our actions and reactions, if there is one good thing out of this mess, it is that we are getting a real opportunity to see who we really are. That is why we have to continually keep coming to the Source of our salvation, peace, joy, strength and life itself to be filled over and over again. We cannot afford to be near "empty", so I pray that you will join me in asking Yah (God) to fill us each day with HIS goodness. He is a Source that will NEVER run out. May we always remember the road that runs back to His arms.
"For He satisfies the longing soul, And fills the hungry soul with goodness." Psalms 107:9

Wednesday, October 7, 2020

Bees, telephone wires, more bees and other things...

For the past 2 weeks there have been a "series" of let's just say interesting things going on around my abode. Well, actually there weren't bees but Yellowjackets that had so graciously made a nest by entering a tiny hole in the siding of the house and "building" their domain in between the outside wall and the inner garage wall. They rewarded my good nature of allowing them to live rent free by attacking the workers that came to remove some bushes AND by deciding that they needed some down time recreation from "working" for the Queen so hard; by finding an opening and entering into the garage. Which means the garage for me was off limits...now imagine that, me, a grown woman put on restriction in my own garage by about 5 ANGRY Yellow jackets. They acted as if it was I that had trespassed on to THEIR property! Once I boldly said out loud to them, "You're not the boss of me!" as I attempted to put the trash in the garage...yeah that worked...they promptly stung me on the arm so fast I didn't even see it coming!
Then there was the house telephone giving up the ghost and deciding that it did not want to work anymore. I don't know which was worst, the phone not working properly or the customer service that didn't really want to service the customer "Me", but kept passing me around and keeping me on hold for up to 40 minutes, only to be disconnected by a friendly robot voice saying "Goodbye". Yep, had to start all over again; Robot: "Tell me what your call is about", then "Press #2 if you are calling to update your service". ME: "Can't I just get ANY service from a human being!!!!!" AAARRRRGH
Anyway, with these things going on along with the everyday pop ups, it was beginning to get under my skin. I mean, I was at the point that if one of my dogs would whine one more time to get attention, I was going to lock him in his crate and throw away the key! I don't really have a key of course, but I could've made one...or something like that... those eyes got me though after I yelled , I love my dogs...when they don't whine. LOL
Anyway, it all worked out and the Holy Spirit had to remind of some advise I had given my neighbor just weeks before, who was in a similar situation with multiple things going on at once..."You can only take care of one thing at a time and it will ALL get done!" I felt great when I was telling HER that, but I had to chuckle when I realized i needed to take my OWN advice.
I hated (riiiight) to say goodbye to the aggressive, angry Yellowjackets, but they weren't willing to negotiate and stay on their turf, so since I was bigger THEY had to go at the tune of $$$$$ and a very professional and thorough exterminator. BYE BEES. The phone issue was taken care too, after many attempts and tolerating some people that seemed to be as frustrated with their jobs as I was with the their service. In time it all worked out...so what am I saying?
If you're going through some things and it seems overwhelming right now, just remember, you can only do what you can and the rest will fall into place...it will eventually all get done, just hold on to your joy! BTW I very much dislike the "Bee" Pillows I used on the front porch this past summer! I wonder if THAT'S what made the Yellowjackets feel so welcomed ??? 🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials,  knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.  But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be [b]perfect and complete, lacking nothing. "  James 1:2-4

Saturday, September 12, 2020


I believe that you've noticed that the atmosphere of this country has changed. It seems that tolerance and tempers have been shortened, anger that at one time laid dormant has sprung to life. I was in a grocery store yesterday and a person lost complete control and was so unreasonably rude to the cashiers that security had to be called in.
The wearing of masks and the 6ft. apart policy designed for our health safety has added fuel to the demise of any societal unity or cordiality we may have experienced in the past. We can no longer see expressions, so we avoid eye contact; so even if you smile at someone they cannot see it so they turn away and it can be interpreted as a brush off. Let me be clear, this is not a soapbox stand against wearing masks but it is an observance of how things are changing so rapidly in this world and I don' t believe that it will ever be the same...which leads to this...
For people that are putting their trust in whomever wins this next presidential election, I say you may be sorely disappointed. I am not a "Debbie Downer" nor a "Mistress of Doom", what I'm saying is what I have observed, read and heard from the people themselves. If our hope is in a man, then we are setting ourselves up for great delusion. No "man" has all the answers and solutions and while I know that from history Yah (God) HAS used men and women to bring about HIS plans...we are now in a different dispensation of time. Now it is in HIS HANDS, the steering wheel has been removed from us and now HE is in total control.
Time and time again we have been given the opportunity to set things right but instead many in leadership have chosen to do things their way. When we called for a leader, Yah (God) gave us what we wanted, when we chose to put aside Yah's (God's) law He did not force us for He that has given us free will would NEVER force us to follow Him. When our eyes ceased to focus on Him, things began to slowly go askew...so here we are...
Here is my point and I humbly say this, realize that what we see going on today is not a result of Yah (God) not caring or has somehow forgotten us, no, this is a culmination of what we have brought on ourselves. I always say that Yah (God) gets blamed for a whole lot of stuff that was and is not His doing, remember He gave us a free will. but here's the remarkable thing, He is STILL watching over us, His Love has not changed. He's waiting for us to realize that this Earth and those in it are HIS. As the saying of some mothers goes when they are upset with their children "I brought you in this world, I can take you out!" , We have to come to our senses that Yah (God) can "take us out" any time He wants, but in His awesome mercy, He is giving us an opportunity to realize that our trust must be in HIM ALONE and no other.
Turn to HIM, then trust Him that He will lead and guide you in the days to come...
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Monday, September 7, 2020

The Model...

"Our Father in heaven, hallowed (reverenced) be Your name. Your kingdom come, Your will be done On earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our debts (sins), as we forgive our debtors. and do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen. Matthew 6:9-13

 Most of us have learned this prayer at a very young and tender age; and it comes easily to remembrance when asked to repeat it at an event, but have we really taken the time to explore its meaning? When you read the whole chapter, this prayer that has been made into a statement recitation or chant if you will , is the answer to the disciples' request of Yissa'Yah (Jesus/Yashua), "Teach us HOW to pray". He precedes to give them the basics or a template of how to communicate with the Father. We call it "The Lord's Prayer" when really it should be "Our Model Prayer," but somehow it has become THEE absolute prayer for some. Some even think that if you say this prayer a certain number of times it will "Get ya in". I don't believe Yah (God) has a point system like that, because if He did a lot of us would be in trouble, including me. What Yissa'Yah (Jesus) was saying was this is HOW you pray not WHAT you repeat over and over out of habit or as a staple when there's trouble. What Yah (God) wants from us is relationship and communication. He of course looks at the heart, but I am sure that He would also LOVE to hear about the other stuff in our lives, our concerns, our fears, even our joy and accomplishments, you know, things you would say to a GOOD father. He desires to communicate with us, He wants to hear our hearts and He wants us to "hear" His.

 In "The Lord's Prayer" Yissa'Yah (Jesus) established that you first acknowledge WHO Yah (God) is to YOU and that you submit to His will; secondly, you acknowledge that HE is the provider of all sustenance and request it from Him; third, you ask Him to forgive your sins and the sins of those that have offended us in some way, fourth, you ask that He deter you from any thing that is not good for us and for His protection from all harm and danger by the enemy of our soul and then lastly, you acknowledge that ALL belongs to Him and we give Him all praise and glory. I'd say Yissa'Yah (Jesus) covered it really well don't you think? NOW we must use that "model" to develop our relationship with the Father. Be real when you talk to Him, He's never surprised by anything that we say and He really does know our motives and the intent of our hearts. He knows when we are honestly and earnestly seeking Him and His help or if we are merely repeating something that was taught to us as a child.

The days ahead are going to get really rocky, I have heard some say it will come sooner than we think. There is no need to fear UNLESS, you have not developed and maintained a close relationship with Yah (God) and received His Son, Yissa'Yah as your Savior/Messiah/Redeemer as the sacrifice for your sins. PERiOD. Better to be safe than sorry...we've been given the "model" prayer, so we are without excuse. Here is an unwarranted tip: Use the "model" and ad-lib with your heart...He hears, He knows, He sees, He is waiting for you...

Sunday, August 9, 2020

Think on the good things ...

Can you believe how quickly summer is winding down? Time is really flying, I don't know if it's because I'm getting older or what 😆 Just posting some "summer memories" before it's time to pull out the fall stuff. I'm not rushing the change of seasons any more than it is, but savoring the good things that made me smile amidst the havoc that's going on in the world. 

The 2 terra-cotta containers were a score last year from Good Will. I liked the distressed patina so I did not scrub them clean, but left them as they are and popped in some cool white sunflowers. The "Bee" pillows I purchased from Walmart's garden section for 5 bucks each, they are indoor/outdoor pillows and have held up well in the summer elements. The Bees remind me to "Bee Happy" (I know that's corny 🙄), but also if bees can carry their body weight with those fragile wings and STILL get all that work done, what's my excuse ! 😂 Then, there were the dying Portulaca plants that I brought home from Lowes for about a dollar each and by just giving it water, a little plant food and tender care, they sprung back to life and have rewarded me with an abundance of blooms all summer! Just a reminder today to think on good things, don't allow yourself to spend precious time wallowing in and pondering on things that cause you to be angry, stressed and anxious. I call it "marinating in the stress and worry sauce"...well don't.do.that. I leave you the words of Apostle Paul to the Philippians, a man that was beaten more than once, misunderstood many times, accused falsely, imprisoned wrongly, rejected by his own, but consider it an honor to serve the The Most High Yah (God)...here are his words from Philippians 4:8-9 

"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on THESE things. The things which you've learned, received, heard and saw in me [Paul], these do, and the Yah (God) of peace will be with you."

Sunday, July 26, 2020


I had an interesting experience yesterday. I was out with a dear friend that was treating me to a late birthday brunch and while standing and waiting for our order this is what happened: A man who I did not know nor did he know me and was about the same age as myself, walked up to me, pointed his finger and yelled "You have to pull that mask over your nose!" To give you a back detail, I had on a cotton mask but had slid the center top portion just under the rim of my nose to briefly catch some fresh air. Side note: it's been medically proven that breathing in your own Carbon Dioxide for an extended amount of time can lead to hypercapnia. If you want the meaning of that word, please look it up on, I'm not here to debate or argue, just stating my management of my own personal health. I assure you that my mask was securely in place covering my mouth and the bottom portion of my face, at that moment I had just slipped it just below my nostrils. GOT IT? got it.

To make this story short, this man yelled at me disrespectfully 3 times, each time getting louder and louder and each time I said to him "Sir Mind your business". To be perfectly honest, the third time that he yelled at me as if I was an ignorant child, I said "Mind your business" and added a choice word, not a cuss word, but one appropriate for the way he was acting and with that he flew into a frenzy and started yelling at the manager that had stepped out from the counter. By now I had pulled the mask the 1/1000000th of an inch over my nose and said to the man " There are you satisfied?" and with that he went into a rage again yelling at the manager to do something about me, and y'all the man looked like he may have been frothing at the mouth, seriously. Being raised in a segregated south and the civil rights movement, I admit that I still have flashbacks of what could happen when people are in a rage; so when the manager asked ME to leave the store and that he would bring my order out to me, I exited not wanting to further cause a scene. I left to wait outside all while the man who had come into my space yelling, pointing a finger and demanding me to do what HE said, remained in the store to get his order. He was still yelling by the way as if he had accomplished his mission of having me punished...for trying to get a whiff of fresh air mind you...all while not being 6 feet around no one until HE decided to come into my space.

 After a while and talking the situation over with my friend who had missed it all as she was out finding a table outside for us, I called my son to share what had just happened. He listened calmly and patiently, asked where I was and we ended the conversation. Well HONEY when I looked up, what seemed to be only 5 minutes later (the ride from his home is at least 15 -20 minutes on a good traffic day), HE WAS THERE! My son is a gentleman, non capricious, slow to speak before analyzing, deep thinker, justice lover and righteous warrior, those are just a few attributes. So when I saw him coming I was like "OK, THIS is going to get handled." My "attacker/accuser" had already left out the side door with a smirk in my direction as I waited at the table for our order. So by Yah's (God's) Grace, he missed it or should I say he ESCAPED it 😅. My son spoke to the manager that had asked me to leave the store (which he nervously denied doing) in a strong, manly and respectful attitude to let him know that this was not handled appropriately, it was my attacker who should have been asked to leave, and that THIS kind of thing should not have happened. My son handled it thoroughly, graciously and in excellence leaving no stone unturned. I think that manager may have experienced what the "fear of God" may feel like without any threats. 😃

 I also believe that the manager, in his attempt to calm this man down, he chose me the lesser of what he saw as a threat, to defuse this man's rage. The cost of my degradation, embarrassment and insult that I suffered in this did not weigh in comparison of what he thought this man could do to him as far as his position in that store...that is sad. I hope that he makes some changes after that talk he had with my son, if not and he continues to protect people that verbally abuse the customers, he may find himself on a social media live recording exposing his personal information and the rest is history.

 As for my "attacker/accuser" let me make this "public service announcement" to him and others that believe it is their "duty" and "privilege' to accost people they do not know in public places to DEMAND that they provide ID for proof of their presence, to DEMAND that they abide by what they say are the "rules" and "laws", who DEMAND that they wear a mask or any other item in the way THEY say it should be worn instead of going to the manager and allowing things to be done in decency and order, who believe it is THEIR right to degrade, stalk and speak condescendingly to an individual or group because you believe you are superior...let me give you a friendly warning...don't. do. that. If you take it upon yourself to step into someone's space uninvited, you may find yourself posted publicly on every social media, the privacy of you and your family totally exposed and possibly your career ruined. This is not a threat, just a warning from someone that believes and say "Enough is Enough" Learn to respect others as you would want yourself and your loved ones to be respected. R.E.S.P.E.C.T.

Sunday, June 28, 2020


“Can a woman forget her nursing child, and not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, Yet I will not forget you." Isaiah 49:15

 I was just outside watering my garden and as the hot scorching sun beamed down on my neck and back it became increasingly uncomfortable. I began to think about my ancestors that worked in the cotton and tobacco fields from sun up tp sun down in the scorching heat of the south. I immediately felt guilty for being such a wimp when they had endured a thousand times worst. My people did this for hundreds of years and while some may say "Well that was then...".

 I can still remember even as a small child in the Jim Crow south accompanying my family members to the fields, where I sat on a blanket and watched them pick cotton and "put in" tobacco to get extra money for school and other supplies. They worked for mere coins and though they were not in the fields from sun up to sundown like our ancestors and were "paid", still they were oppressed by every meaning of the word. My family was blessed in that both my parents were able to stand strong and provide necessities like food, a home and education for the family, so some will say "Well see, you came out of it alright, why look back?" I remember because not only my parents but all of my ancestors paid a heavy. heavy price. A price so high that people can't or don't want to hear about it. Atrocities and experiences of not only my ancestors, but even as current as my immediate family and myself, but I do not seek pity, I do not desire an apology, I only pray for justice. We are beyond having sit down talks and discussions on racial reconciliation, that has been done for decades and there is still no change. True change only comes from the heart.

 I can not judge anyone's heart, but Yah (God) can. What we see happening in the media is the exposure of man's hearts, what's in there is coming out. It is Yah's (God's) doing. In His mercy, He has given each of us a time to get it right...now it's His time and He does not forget.There are other peoples and nations that have been through oppression, but my race is the only race that has been told to "Forget about it, that was the past." and that is highly offensive because those same people would NEVER tell someone of Jewish descent to forget the Holocaust, "...that was the past." It would not only be highly offensive, but you would not get away with it, trust me...and yet my people and myself personally have been told that over and over again.

I am not angry, but this is the season when what was upside down is being turned right side up; yes, there is shifting and unrest and I've heard many say "This feels different, things are not the same", but Yah (God) has a plan. Our hearts must be clean before Him, transparent, honest and opened to receive and obey His leading. #Neverforget

Running on fumes...

I have this practice in recent months that as soon as my car's gas tank gets down about a quarter, I make sure to refill. My thinking is...