Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Humbling...

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
I Peter 5:6-7

It is a humbling thing to be humbled. Today was one of those times. Duties that I had taken pride in doing for a very long time have been taken away from me. As I sat and listened to the people that are responsible now for those same duties, I began to think that all my hard work had gone in vain. Spending extra time, taking work home and even checking and double-checking to make sure each detail was perfect, now seemed like some big joke. And the joke was on me!

Did I think that I was indispensable, that no one could perform like me? I thought that I had the right motive…to do a good job without expecting any recognition. But as the Lord began to gently speak to my heart, I began to see that my motives were not a pure as I thought they were. As I submitted to the fact that life goes on and God is the one that order my steps, I began to feel a layer of “self” began to peel away. My feelings were first very vulnerable, feeling exposed, then pity for myself, and then a total revelation of the fact that I am nothing and can do nothing with out God. What a relief that was!
With each piece of me that I lay down, I can “pick up” more of Him.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Neither sleep nor slumber...

Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
he LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
Psalms 121: 4-8

I had a rough day yesterday, started to worry about things that I really should not. But the feelings became just like a roller coaster. First a wave of worry, then doubt, then fear, then self pity was in hot pursuit. I felt like I was spinning out of control! And here I thought I was such a secure person…but it happened.

Finally I called my younger sister and asked her to pray for me. I know it was the right thing to do. Because as she prayed it was like a soft warm blanket fell upon me, shutting out all the worry, fear and anxiety that I felt. And yes, even the loneliness that tried to overtake me began to go away.

By the time she had finished praying and speaking words of encouragement over me, I felt like a new person. And when I went to bed at night I slipped naturally into a deep relaxing sleep.
I thank God for His servants (in my case it was my younger sister), that can be there for us when we need a shoulder to lean on or a hand to lift us up. I thank God that I was able to sleep peacefully…after all He never sleeps nor slumbers and is watching over us….

Friday, October 3, 2008

Take Time !

Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; His greatness no one can fathom.
One generation will commend your works to another; they will tell of your mighty acts.
They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty, and I will meditate on your wonderful works. They will tell of the power of your awesome works, and I will proclaim your great deeds.
Psalms 145:3-6

As I was walking into work this morning I looked up at the sky and saw the most beautifu lsight I have ever seen! Whites clouds like lace with a pink shimmering border! This against a blue sky was something to behold! I stopped and stared up at this awesome sight. I did not care who was watching me as I took in the beauty of God’s handiwork!

Lately, I have really taken the time to “smell the roses”. We are all in such a rush most times, and what we are rushing to, will be there when we get there! We miss out on so much in life by flying by blindly to accomplish something that doesn’t really matter in the whole scope of things. And God has so many little “delights’ He want to share with us.

Take time, take time to give a smile, to coo over a baby, to read a good book. Take time to observe the beauty of God’s handiwork in nature, especially this time of year. Take time to thank Him for the glorious splendor of His majesty!

Thursday, October 2, 2008

In rememberance...

Happy Birthday Ma!
Today is October 2nd, your birthday. If you were still on this earth you would be 85 years old! And I’m willing to bet that if you were here you would still be the good looking, well dressed woman that you always were.

Can I tell you… I miss you Ma. I miss our Saturday morning talks, how we would laugh! I’m sitting here at work and wondering how I have made it without having you to talk to. So much has happened since you’ve gone. First of all I have 2 grandchildren now and I know how you felt when I used to visit with my son (your grandson). I remember how you would spoil him and treat him so special. Guess what? Now I understand, because now I know how special it is to have grandchildren and what a special love God gives us just for them.

Ma, you know already that Larry passed away, so I know how you felt when Da died. If I had known then like I know now, I would have called you more, because I know how lonely it can get sometimes. I would have paid more attention when you talked about Da, because now I know how much it means to be able to just talk about the man that was part of your life for such a long time. And Ma… I would have kissed and hugged you more, if I had known you would be leaving us.

I know that where you are right now you are in such splendor that even the best of what you experienced on this earth could never compare. I believe that you have been re-united with Da and your own mother, what a wonderful joy that must have been! And I also believe that you remember me and all of us that you loved here on earth.

You poured so much of yourself into us Ma, sometimes I even look in the mirror and catch a glimpse of you. Rather it be a phrase I say or a body movement I do, there you are! I've even inherited your love of sending greeting cards. Like you, I have a fun time picking out just the right card for someone. You will forever be a part of my life and in my heart. And I say thank you for all you’ve done for me

You always used to say “He says that He will never leave us nor forsake us”. And it is so true. I am so grateful that you knew God so personally and had the assurance that He was with you, just as you are with Him right now.

Happy Birthday Ma, I love you! I’m sending lots of kisses and I pray that some how, some way the Lord will let you know how much you are missed and loved.
Your daughter,Roni