Sounds like me! I've fallen (in a big 'ol rut) and I can't get up! (laughing but not so funny)
I find that I am prone to be found in my comfort zone, where things are predictable and not hard to figure out. I like things that are reliable and planned for ahead of time. While these things are good qualities, sometimes we or rather I can get too comfortable and need to change. My Mom always bought really good quality, name brand clothes for us when we were children, but she always bought them at least a size bigger than what we needed. She did this because she knew that we were in our
I remember being in a leaders' meeting at the church I attended at the time many years ago and the pastor saying to me "You have quite a happy smile." And I remember thinking I FEEL happy! I was a relatively new Christian, my husband and I were getting involved at our church and things were really on a good roll. I felt almost invincible, to be sad as a Christian was unheard of to me. I mean how can you be sad and be a Christian at the same time? I had found my comfort zone and I wouldn't let anyone pull me out of it. It was fine for a while then a thing called LIFE began to grab my attention through a series of events like disappointment, rejection, and even a failure in health. I was forced out of my comfort zone to confront LIFE and God reached out His hand and carried me along, never leaving me just as He said He would do. Underneath all the howling winds of adversity, the waves of questions and the plummeting of disappointments was the constancy of God, my Father holding me and taking me through with a promise that I would make it.
I must admit that through all of this "growing up" I still seek out my comfort zone. I think that I have retreated back into what I know to be secure and reliable. While it is always good to trust in God's reliability and faithfulness, I on the other hand confess that I had begun to trust a little too much in
My husband had a long term illness, that came with a voraciousness and then at times would be in a remitted state and a lot of the symptoms would be gone. This went on for years and together we believed that God would totally heal him one day. But when it came back the last time, he never recovered and passed away with both of us believing until the end that God would raise him up from the affliction.
In the years since his passing I believe that I have built a comfort zone around me that though it protected me somewhat from some unexpected things, it also kept out the "serendipity" that God wants for me. Those pleasant surprises that He wants to bestow on each and everyone of us.
I love the movie "Serendipity", it's about a man and a woman that keep meeting in some crazy and strange events, in accidental, pleasant surprising ways. Ultimately those serendipity events bring them together which was meant to be. Great chick flick! But my prayer for 2014 is that I will allow the Lord to help me to relax and enjoy this life that He has entrusted me with. That I get out of my comfort zone and once again believe Him for the pleasant surprises and that I will not fear of being caught without being first prepared. My security is Him and He is always prepared.
Father, I thank You for allowing me to see another year and I pray that You take me by the hand and lead me through the purpose that You have for me. Amen!
We've been hit with snow 3 times in the last few weeks here are some pictures:
view from the porch
We got about 8 inches this time!
But Bruno and I are warm and safe inside!