Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Retirement...


“Since my youth, O God, you have taught me, and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds. Even when I am old and gray, do not forsake me, O God, till I declare your power to the next generation, your might to all who are to come.”  Psalms 71:17-18 (NIV)
I just recently retired from my job after 17 years.  It was a great job and I enjoyed it.  Of course it was not perfect and there were days that I resisted getting up to go (especially this past winter) but all in all it was a good job. My first 11 years were spent having more direct contact with students, which I loved, the past 6 years were more staff contact; however as I allowed God to enter into my heart that I should “bloom where I’m planted”, I met some awesome people and have made some lifelong friendships that have enriched my life greatly.  It was the classic example of resisting change…opposing something that God had ordained for my good.  Why do we do that?  We resist even without giving change a try, when just over the horizon of doubt, fear and maybe feelings of rejection, is a bright and wonderful experience.

I wrestled for about a year with the decision of retiring. Being a widow, I first went through the “But I’m alone and have no one to support me”.  I think I “heard” the Lord laugh at that one…He said “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”  Plus I checked my track record for the past 12 years and reminded myself how He has taken care of me thus far.  THEN I had a round with “Suppose I give up this job and find out later that I need it back.” Then it dawned on me that if I trusted God to get me this job , surely if I for some reason needed to get another one, He can do that too…DUUUHHH YEAH!

I had already felt impressed about the date that I should retire, but after listening to the nightly news about the economy, I started to extend that date further and further from the original one. I was a WRECK!  Couldn’t sleep or eat with doubt and fear trying to overtake me.  Until one day in conversation with a faithful friend of mine and lamenting over when or if I should retire, she simply said “Well, if someone told you that you HAD to stay would you be happy about that?”  I immediately said “NO”!  That made me weigh the balance between lamenting over whether to stay or having the freedom to leave and feeling happy! A no-brainer. When I asked the Lord about the date to retire again, was that a sigh I “heard” this time?  Anyway in all of His never-ending patience He impressed on me again the original date! I went through so many changes when I could have saved my self the grief and just did what He impressed me to do in the first place!  LOL
So here I am, retired and in a new season of my life. I am excited about what He has next for me. Is everything the way I want it to be? No. My late husband and I talked about retiring together and traveling.  I, myself would LOVE to have that be the case, but God in His sovereign will had other plans. I have the comfort of knowing without a doubt that he is with the Lord and in no more pain or suffering, cheering me on to enjoy this life that God has given me; and to fulfill my purpose here on earth so that I can one day experience all of the pleasures in heaven that he is experiencing right now. Until then...

It is with joy that I grow old because God says:
 “I have cared for you since you were born. Yes, I carried you before you were born. I will be your God throughout your lifetime – until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you.” Isaiah 46:3-4 NLT

And I am excited for the journey because:
 “The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree, He shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon. Those who are planted in the house of the LORD Shall flourish in the courts of our God. They shall still bear fruit in old age; They shall be fresh and flourishing. ” Psalm 92:12-14
Amen!
On another note here are some summer blue and white changes to the homestead:
 






 
 
 
 


7 comments:

Shenita @ Embellishments by SLR said...

What an exciting time, Veronica! Embrace it and enjoy it! The Lord always provides for his children!

doodles n daydreams said...

I empathize with you. I struggled with when to retire as well. We had plans as a couple too but ill health, husbands, intervened. It has been an interesting and challenging time. And God has been faithful. Enjoy your retirement,

blessings,
Diana

Veronica said...

Thanks Shenita! I am learning how to do just that. Getting used to not rushing everywhere! LOL

Veronica said...

You are right Diana, God IS so very faithful!

Carol said...

I'm so glad you stopped by my blog today because I got to read your post today. I've been retired from teaching since May of 2008. I know alot about the 'the what ifs' of retirement. God does provide. Retirement is wonderful! Enjoy!
Have a wonderful week!

Smiles,
Carol

Veronica said...

Thanks Carol! I always love reading your blog and thanks for the encouragement and well wishes!-Veronica

FABBY'S LIVING said...

Oh sweet lady I'm sorry I missed your posts and this is an awesome one that needs to be congratulated! I retired along with my husband in 2008 and really, I haven't missed work or anything. I've found so many things to do that before I never had time to, like meeting with friends, having rosary prayers at my house each month. Going to visit my DD 3 hours away any given time and of course blogging with all of you great ladies!
I adore your blue and white! Please don't disappear on me!
Have a great weekend.
Blessings with your new life decision.
FABBY